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[Nutpuncher]

UPDATE: 19 DAY suboxone free!

I will continue to be a slave as long as I am on any type of opiate. Continue to be a slave.....hmmmm....that is a hard pill to swallow so Aug 21st I said to myself "fuck I don't want to continue being a fucking slave...so I say NOT TODAY". As of now, I am waiting for time to pass so that I don't feel any sort of physical WD and then the hard work begins which is to feel normal again.

I don't want my 25+ yr war with addiction to define who I am.

 

[Rc10b4]

Keep it up Brother. Clearly a hard road to travel that not everyone can overcome. You're strong enough. Wish you the best!

 

[01dragonslayer]

I will continue to be a slave as long as I am on any type of opiate. Continue to be a slave.....hmmmm....that is a hard pill to swallow so Aug 21st I said to myself "fuck I don't want to continue being a fucking slave...so I say NOT TODAY". As of now, I am waiting for time to pass so that I don't feel any sort of physical WD and then the hard work begins which is to feel normal again.

I don't want my 25+ yr war with addiction to define who I am.

Love your perseverance, drive, and determination. I seen opiates ruin lives and families pretty much on a daily basis and I would never would want to be in your position. Stay strong my friend and remember we are all here to help.

 

[Dozer82]

Congratulations my friend, many people take them to help and never get off of them. Im a fellow opiate addict. Heroin was my first choice but didnt turn anything down. Currently 6.5 yrs totally sober and i feel amazing.everyday i fight those demons and everyday i become stronger as will you

 

[C587]

You will feel normal again man. I abused opiates over 10-15 years. I feel great now. You will to eventually just keep at it.

 

[Rot-Iron66]

Wishing you the best my friend, keep on breathing defiance!

 

[C587]

Cool thing about recovery is you learn who you really are. I'm a whole different person since I got off opiates. Values changed,I have integrity now,I think of others,I love my son now more then dope,I haven't been arrested since 2014,I notice the little things now like dew on the grass or sunsets,,,anyways sorry for the long post. Just keep going man one day at a time and eventually the 'sober' you will come out and you'll grow as a person. I got faith in you man you can do it. your too smart to be a slave to drugs as you said...do it for the kid and wife man but most importantly yourself. Hit me anytime man you know how to find me.

 

[Nutpuncher]

Keep it up Brother. Clearly a hard road to travel that not everyone can overcome. You're strong enough. Wish you the best!

Love your perseverance, drive, and determination. I seen opiates ruin lives and families pretty much on a daily basis and I would never would want to be in your position. Stay strong my friend and remember we are all here to help.

Thank you for your continual support. I appreciate you guys. Isn't one definition of crazy is to hope to get different results by doing the same thing over and over lol?

I think it all boils down to how bad you want. I've always thought I wanted bad enough but never looked at myself as being a slave which was the kick in me ass that I needed.

Congratulations my friend, many people take them to help and never get off of them. Im a fellow opiate addict. Heroin was my first choice but didn't turn anything down. Currently 6.5 yrs totally sober and i feel amazing.everyday i fight those demons and everyday i become stronger as will you

Its nice to hear about others who have successfully overcame their addiction. Good work buddy. Turn something down? Screw that non sense lol. I was the same way. Very true about becoming stronger as each clean day goes by.

You will feel normal again man. I abused opiates over 10-15 years. I feel great now. You will to eventually just keep at it.

you just reminded me that I never replied to your last msg, sorry about that. I'll send you a msg buddy.

Wishing you the best my friend, keep on breathing defiance!

Thank you stranger lol.

Cool thing about recovery is you learn who you really are. I'm a whole different person since I got off opiates. Values changed,I have integrity now,I think of others,I love my son now more then dope,I haven't been arrested since 2014,I notice the little things now like dew on the grass or sunsets,,,anyways sorry for the long post. Just keep going man one day at a time and eventually the 'sober' you will come out and you'll grow as a person. I got faith in you man you can do it. your too smart to be a slave to drugs as you said...do it for the kid and wife man but most importantly yourself. Hit me anytime man you know how to find me.

I agree! I need to do this for me and only me because I feel this is the only way that I will rediscover who I really am. You already know I'll be even cooler than I used to be lol.

 

[Nutpuncher]

4 full weeks off Suboxone with much help from Kratom, slave w/ differnt master?

Yesterday was the 1st day that I felt less dope sick. No matter how you look at it, dope sick is no Bueno. Today marks 4 full weeks from my last suboxone. There is no way I could've made 4 full weeks without the help of Kratom. I've tried before but eventually I'd get back on.

I won't be a freeman until I quit kratom. I feel that I am still a slave but I've kicked my old master out and got a much nicer master named Kratom. I am currently ok with my new master, but its still trading 1 drug for something else...lesser of 2 evils.

I just finished trying to understand this article as much as my brain will allow, took couple days lol. Very interesting read. https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC3670991/

I heard that the reason why Big Pharma isn't trying to patent Kratom is due to can't patent a plant, not because Kratom isn't effective to use as a stepping stone to get off harsher opiates.

 

[01dragonslayer]

Yesterday was the 1st day that I felt less dope sick. No matter how you look at it, dope sick is no Bueno. Today marks 4 full weeks from my last suboxone. There is no way I could've made 4 full weeks without the help of Kratom. I've tried before but eventually I'd get back on.

I won't be a freeman until I quit kratom. I feel that I am still a slave but I've kicked my old master out and got a much nicer master named Kratom. I am currently ok with my new master, but its still trading 1 drug for something else...lesser of 2 evils.

I just finished trying to understand this article as much as my brain will allow, took couple days lol. Very interesting read. https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC3670991/

I heard that the reason why Big Pharma isn't trying to patent Kratom is due to can't patent a plant, not because Kratom isn't effective to use as a stepping stone to get off harsher opiates.

Hang in there brotha. We are here to lean on.

 

[Nutpuncher]

Hang in there brotha. We are here to lean on.

Hanging on (aka fighting) is the only option that makes sense to me because I am too stupid to know when to stop. Thats ok because I've heard ignorance is bliss lol.

 

[Nutpuncher]

almost 5 full weeks clean and I feel damn sexy!!!!

I am almost 5 full weeks clean. When I passed bathroom mirror to take a piss when I woke up with morning, I thought to myself "you are one sexy ass looking dude (not b/c I was pitching a tent lol)". I plan on getting back in shape and then work towards my 2nd goal that I never attempted which is ripped at 185lb. BUT I do like the idea of lowering my expectations so that my goals are easily accomplished lol.

 

[01dragonslayer]

I am almost 5 full weeks clean. When I passed bathroom mirror to take a piss when I woke up with morning, I thought to myself "you are one sexy ass looking dude (not b/c I was pitching a tent lol)". I plan on getting back in shape and then work towards my 2nd goal that I never attempted which is ripped at 185lb. BUT I do like the idea of lowering my expectations so that my goals are easily accomplished lol.

Lol...way ta go sexy dude. We are here with ya every step to help you reach your goal. I wish you the best in your comeback.

 

[Kins]

If anyone can get through something like this it's [MENTION=178]Nutpuncher[/MENTION]. Through talking with him several times via PM he just has a very positive outlook on everything. Think positive and stay away from negative people and negative thinkers.

 

[Ricnixon]

I am almost 5 full weeks clean. When I passed bathroom mirror to take a piss when I woke up with morning, I thought to myself "you are one sexy ass looking dude (not b/c I was pitching a tent lol)". I plan on getting back in shape and then work towards my 2nd goal that I never attempted which is ripped at 185lb. BUT I do like the idea of lowering my expectations so that my goals are easily accomplished lol.

Good for you pal!!!

 

[C587]

I am almost 5 full weeks clean. When I passed bathroom mirror to take a piss when I woke up with morning, I thought to myself "you are one sexy ass looking dude (not b/c I was pitching a tent lol)". I plan on getting back in shape and then work towards my 2nd goal that I never attempted which is ripped at 185lb. BUT I do like the idea of lowering my expectations so that my goals are easily accomplished lol.

Good work [MENTION=178]Nutpuncher[/MENTION] I'm proud of you brother keep it up!!

 

[Rot-Iron66]

That a boy you sexy f*&k!!

 

[Thaistick]

Very good news. I'm glad you are doing so well. It's worth it man, I know it got hard there for you but you are coming back stronger than ever.

 

[Nutpuncher]

clean now for 6 full weeks and some change lol. I can't express how much I've felt better. Every day this week I have been walking up with my the answer that I have been wanting (but never worked for). Life still sucks ass but in a different way. Before it was due to being dope sick. Nowadays its not due being dope sick but fuck, mental illness. My brain is my worst enemy right now. My brain is telling me relief is only 24hrs away provided that I order before noon EST. To be honest, I have entertained ordering too many times this week.

In other words, being an addict for 30 consecutive years caused my brain to be different than when I was borne with.... This was never how I thought I would outdo my genetics. This journey is 100% different than all of my so called journey combined because in the past I would never tell anyone about my struggles so that I can fail without having to say that I tried.

 

[C587]

Keep going man. The mind is a powerful thing over time I believe it will heal itself.