Venting from Crazy Me

[ketsugo]

OK First I'm having dreams of my cat and I playing Hockey in a Senior league WOW that's first sign of insanity

I have this chick staying with me and old friend that wa honeless so I helped her by providing roof food etc. No money , no job hard to get as she is ex felon. I give few bucks here and there So I try to inquire is she is actively looking to live elsewhere- Not kicking her out but just inquiring how long I need to take care of her. Though she barely eats gets Food STamps but no job no money, between me and one friend she has give her some money or she just stays in room with her cat. Well never can I have a chat NEVER- Its like screaming - Ill got to your landlords parents to get the father to kick you out- If I go you go- I quit heroine so I could stay here , " you should be thankful' LOL Oh yes thank you so much for your contribution - Ya know I wash her dishes too. SHe don't clean up. She also maced me another chat, wnt to neighbor to say I beat her , like yeah ok then go youre not on lease if you are so miserable ! I drive her to meth clinic daily - I cant have a life yet some how I still feel guilty or bad for her - I cant hurt her - She is this 4'11" 87 Pound Tasmanian Sociopath Devil !!! That feels entitlted to my helping her. Now cant use AAS or anything afraid she will ahhh, " tell on me " SHeesh I call Landlord as I have close rapport - He says no worries if she goes to my Dads my Brother and Sister there will beat the piss out of her if she stresses them out ( Which a different Famiy member stays over the parents every night as they are elderly and not totally 100%- Nicest people too ! I cant tell her how uncool that is so no matter what I cant get though one sentence of when are you leaving etc Without Her flipping out- I have personally now myself diagnosed her with ,"Borderline Personality Disorder" characterized by obsessive inclinaions toward creating Drama and turning people in her life against each other due to fear of intimacy ect. Google it- Like a psychiatrist nightmare even as you cant treat it - My landlord says well where is she going to go??? SHe has no one ??? Now she stole the naighbors cat and LL backs here there too as they have history of neglecting all there pets by letting them roam free - They have bead on collar that opens a pet door in garage when they go there- But he always now wont go there he ends up on our porch when its cold or stormy or sleeps under my car everynight- SO now I have to feel bad for him too- ( My hockey team mate LOL ) My landlord feels bad for her- Like I'm 52, shes 31 , Part of me loves her to death sort of like a child. I have none so the closest thing I could imagine is her- but my life is on hold- Like I'm on an administrative paid leave from my job even which also stresses me- No work for 6 months- not to mention my medical issues ie Blood cancer ect. How did I get into this mess, my lofe is just one huge mistake . I tell her if I lose my paid job I'm screwed as I wont be able to make this pay starting anywhere else as 52 year old, so advising her to find place is a alert - I guess I'm just finding a new place in secret she is not on my lease , though I stay up unable to sleep thinking of this shit . She don't understand bills my medical bills shy high too- anytime I try to share I'm a liar - so Never Never Never can I have one chat. Anyone want to trade places?? Thanks I had to get that out

 

[Rot-Iron66]

I think that is a good idea, get a new place, just move some day soon, let the ever-caring landlord deal w/ her and take her in.
Sounds like you don't need any stress/extra drama for what you are going thru.

 

[OHBRUTUSIO]

Fuck it man and move on. She doesnt run you or this. Get your life back bro!

 

[The Beef]

Good luck with this brother. However you have to do it move on

 

[MotorCityMuscleMachine]

Kets.. my brother I'm glad you got that out...!

You seem like a very Tremendous human being with great empathy, and I respect the hell out of that.

Most would not do , or put themselves in your shoes in the first place. I commend you for trying to help someone who either can't// or doesn't want to help themselves.

While I didn't even read a.the way thru , (and I will ) but I just had to "fast -forward " and tell you that Karma I surely hope works 10 fold for you buddy.

Your a wealth of knowledge here in the board and a true Inspiration. I like to read everything you post.

I do remember a few months back, your initial post,. And was just recently had thought about you, and felt compelled to post up and ask how things are going

Hang in there friend, I would certainly try to encourage this. Young lady to help out in some way idk. Haven't the right answer for the moment. My
But no, what you are doing for her she should at "least" be doing "your" dishes.

It's a shame,. I see this , and hear these things guys at my workplace, older too, older than you & I taking care if their grandchildren, cuz the daughter is /was messed up on drug's. I don't get it... I count my blessings every day.

Is there (for the time being ) some outside help for this woman..? I don't know much about these situations Zero as I have always been self sufficient (reliant) on me, and me only, I had a great upbringing, and try my damndess
To do the same with my 3, and I think I've done alright.

It's the rest of the world that's jacked up.

Hang in there pal, I sincerely hope this improves "soon" for the better, so you can get on "With You" ...!

Merry Christmas Ket's...!

MotorCity

 

[TheTruth]

Good luck with this bro, let us know what happens

 

[Nutpuncher]

Hey brother. I had a hard time reading what you wrote because I can tell you had so much to say that your fingers couldn't type as fast as your thoughts.

I would recommend you being strategically smart about how you exit this situation. From my perspective, I think that no matter how much you help, it won't be enough. You will be at fault in her mind. Her mind is damaged and needs repair. I say strategically smart because if she feels that you did her wrong and how can you kick someone out that is suffering as much as she has and is even though its not your fault that she is where she is at. I know from personal experience that an addict is dangerous when he/she feels that "they are trying to turn their life around (by going to clinic) but you kick her on the street" That right there can be enough fuel to cause much unwantedessness such as a DV (domestic violence) when all you were doing is protecting her from scratching her eye out by holding onto her wrist which caused bruising.