Alright guys might should dumb to some maybe not to others I'm not sure. To make a long story short my gf and I are both recovering heroin addicts both been clean for 5 years without relapses or anything of that nature. Anyways she has a picture of an old friends around that ODed before her and I met. Just friends that's it. We got in a fight last Wednesday which caused me to leave for a week because of the picture I guess I didn't ask her to remove it I demanded her to remove it. Reason being she doesn't like hearing about my past with violence and drugs even doesn't like hearing about steroids use and I would rather not see pictures of people she used with. So it was like if you aren't taking something as simple as a picture down because it bothers me then maybe this isn't the place for me. I came back yesterday and I guess I came back and thought the picture was taking down or honestly i didn't even think about it at all but just seen it again cleaning our room. Maybe I'm actually being a little bitch and fucked in my head or is it the tren. I hate when things get blamed on roids because they have never affected in me a really negative way. Sorry if this is posted in the wrong area. Just wanted to get it off my chest real quick because I don't want to explode like I did last time just looking for a little advice.
G/f issues or is it the tren..
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lol blame the tren...
Ricnixon
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I'm not sure bro, I kinda see this differently than others above. This isn't about the picture, this is about an addiction and lifestyle that is behind you. That picture resurfaces raw emotions connected to some dark times. Your reaction to seeing the picture has merit based on both of your history and recovery with heroin.
Someone said above that if you care about her is it really that big of an issue?
Well flip that around..... she should also respect your feelings and take it down. If she doesn't, then obviously she doesn't value your feelings and emotions. Goes both ways bro.
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Someone said above that if you care about her is it really that big of an issue?
Well flip that around..... she should also respect your feelings and take it down. If she doesn't, then obviously she doesn't value your feelings and emotions. Goes both ways bro.
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Ricnixon that's what it is. I left my lifestyle completely behind the day I got clean dropped all friends. So from the time I was 16-25 I dropped everyone in my life that I met along the way and people I considered friends. Changed my number multiple times deleted all social media for a while. Just got rid of everything. Maybe we are 2 different people in that aspect my life was miserable during those years I've come to terms with it and as far as I'm concerned that part of me is dead. We didn't know each other when we used. So not like we used together. But I haven't brought it up
To her yet and idk if I am. I feel I neee too so I don't flip shit but at the same time I don't want another argument over it. This has everything to
Do with drugs and the past and nothing to
Do with the fact it's a guy or if I wonder if they hooked up or anything like that. I guess what I really wonder is how fucking long are you going to hold on for it's been 7-8 years... not like it happened a year or so ago. I don't want to wake up to a picture of some junkie everyday and have to Hold back anger
To her yet and idk if I am. I feel I neee too so I don't flip shit but at the same time I don't want another argument over it. This has everything to
Do with drugs and the past and nothing to
Do with the fact it's a guy or if I wonder if they hooked up or anything like that. I guess what I really wonder is how fucking long are you going to hold on for it's been 7-8 years... not like it happened a year or so ago. I don't want to wake up to a picture of some junkie everyday and have to Hold back anger
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Exactly brother. You just answered your own question. I'm married now with a little one.....but relationships are a two way street of respect, compromise, and companionship. Sounds like you need to express your feelings and have a gentle discussion, not a fight, about how you feel and show your vulnerability to certain things. The raw emotion you still possess about your past needs to be laid out there.
If she doesn't respect your feelings and show she is committed to respecting those feelings...... move the fuck on.
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If she doesn't respect your feelings and show she is committed to respecting those feelings...... move the fuck on.
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Wasn't trying to make light of your situation but IMO if you don't like the pic and she doesn't want to put it away or get rid of it then there's got to be more to it , a connection for whatever reason, respect goes both ways either you need the whole story or she needs to respect your wishes. Plain and simple are you just a boyfriend and she just a girlfriend or is it deeper. I get what your saying about the lifestyle, I been clean 14 years oct 20, I left it all one day and never turned back. No ties all severed to this day if there's dope anywhere around me I drop those folks with a heartbeat. I don't need reminders of where I was only where I want to be, not that skinny fucking addict from years past. I wish you luck in your struggle bro.
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It's def an over reaction but I know how it is bro and honestly she's probably taking it too far too and u should just let it go but if you always find yourself in these kinds of situations with her where you both are taking things a little far or over reacting and u are always the one who has to compromise then it's something else. Just my opinion
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First I am was once on opiates and I will not tolerate my old friends at my home or around my family periods because I just can't and I want no photo of the time!!!! It's horrific!!! Really!
On tren single back in the day I could handle it better but did get into so fights with family time to time.
Been with wife for 10 years and I can't use the enathate any more because she pisses me off too bad!
Now I use the acetate only for 4-6 weeks max I end blasts with it as recomp now.
All me and wife do is fight when I take it. And about things that she says I am living in the past. Tren makes me emotional and thing get to me and start going on in my head like a tape. The thought of certain things has me stressed out talking to myself.
And I will come up with some hateful stuff!!! The tren does it to me. Anyone I have to deal with face to face everyday will have there little things that pisses me off! And I will not let anything go at all.
When I was single I can use tren get in shape talk to the weights and like to pain I would put myself through workout and I always do but more intense!
I was a miserable sob and stayed to myself on it. Now I have a family and time has been limited to hardly ever!!!
For me it's the tren!!!
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On tren single back in the day I could handle it better but did get into so fights with family time to time.
Been with wife for 10 years and I can't use the enathate any more because she pisses me off too bad!
Now I use the acetate only for 4-6 weeks max I end blasts with it as recomp now.
All me and wife do is fight when I take it. And about things that she says I am living in the past. Tren makes me emotional and thing get to me and start going on in my head like a tape. The thought of certain things has me stressed out talking to myself.
And I will come up with some hateful stuff!!! The tren does it to me. Anyone I have to deal with face to face everyday will have there little things that pisses me off! And I will not let anything go at all.
When I was single I can use tren get in shape talk to the weights and like to pain I would put myself through workout and I always do but more intense!
I was a miserable sob and stayed to myself on it. Now I have a family and time has been limited to hardly ever!!!
For me it's the tren!!!
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10 years sober brother. And I can't take the reminders.
I don't mind talking to someone who wants direction but it's has to have boundaries.
But me and wife have things that she pokes at me with to piss me off.
When I am on tren she doesn't like that I stand up more and put up with less.
But at same time maybe my wife and your girlfriend feels we should put the tren away rather than the photo.
And maybe she sees it like the pins are a reminder to her!!!
Just saying it's a two way street don't even forger.
But like I said I love my wife and kids and the way tren makes me and also makes her because when we different from tren it affects them too. I gave it up the tren for peace in my family except now I tell my wife babe I am gonna use some tren a and prop only at 60-70 every 36 hours (better on sides for me) can u help me not to stress. And not pick and remember I am taking tren it makes me ass.
Also when I had my first ever scared with tren e after years of use well when it happened I was so irritable and littlest things set me off. It got to point I thought I was gonna have a heart attack. I told rest week off work came home told wife I am not ok and need help it's the dam tren. She helped me stay calm till the ester got weak it took a good 6 days to feel better.
Let me tell u guys I used gear for 20 years and lots of tren and this happened to me about 4 years ago. I never will touch tren e. I was 1/2 into second vial or more around week 6 when this hit!!!
Now I know what people said when they said this!
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I don't mind talking to someone who wants direction but it's has to have boundaries.
But me and wife have things that she pokes at me with to piss me off.
When I am on tren she doesn't like that I stand up more and put up with less.
But at same time maybe my wife and your girlfriend feels we should put the tren away rather than the photo.
And maybe she sees it like the pins are a reminder to her!!!
Just saying it's a two way street don't even forger.
But like I said I love my wife and kids and the way tren makes me and also makes her because when we different from tren it affects them too. I gave it up the tren for peace in my family except now I tell my wife babe I am gonna use some tren a and prop only at 60-70 every 36 hours (better on sides for me) can u help me not to stress. And not pick and remember I am taking tren it makes me ass.
Also when I had my first ever scared with tren e after years of use well when it happened I was so irritable and littlest things set me off. It got to point I thought I was gonna have a heart attack. I told rest week off work came home told wife I am not ok and need help it's the dam tren. She helped me stay calm till the ester got weak it took a good 6 days to feel better.
Let me tell u guys I used gear for 20 years and lots of tren and this happened to me about 4 years ago. I never will touch tren e. I was 1/2 into second vial or more around week 6 when this hit!!!
Now I know what people said when they said this!
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